Cancer

"Cancer" the most feared diagnosis you can ever hear from someones lips to your ear and I have it. It is the most devastating insult to us as a person and to our family and friends that will be with us throughout the course of this disease. It is indiscriminate towards who it attacks from the Godly to the wicked and yet even in it's punishment to both. The only difference I guess comes when it's time for the body to go "in the box" and the soul to go where ever we believe it goes.

Cancer brings into focus those that love me as well as those who do and just can't say it. It reveals my true friends that have been with me during these early events and removes the mask of those who pretend to be my friend. I have been both amazed and surprised to learn both of these things. The offers of help and support is both overwhelming and humbling. It serves to remind me where I have failed to be that person to those I have known in need.


Cancer will ravage me, my family, those that love me and my true friends that will work through this with me. It will have effects on each of us that will last a life time. It will cause us to face emotions that will make us uncomfortable and perhaps change our outlook on life. Today, we will try and capture memories and file them away for the future. All of this will not be just about me or even you because we are not unique in this battle with a fearless enemy.


The days ahead will be difficult I'm sure and yet I can already feel the love and support of those around me. Am I afraid? Certainly. Am I confident that we will defeat this thing called cancer? Absolutely. Will this change my life forever? No doubt. Am I heartbroken? More so for those that love me because they will suffer in equal measure to me sometimes feeling helpless, but I believe never hopeless.

"Cancer" a word that I hope never brings this fear to your own heart.